On Hiatus
Published by SFEley on 13 Nov 2008 at 12:17 am.
162 Comments.
Filed under Site News.
Folks:
Summary first. Escape Pod is going to miss its weekly releases for the remainder of November. We will resume in December, probably the first week.
Now the explanation.
I suppose I could just say that I’m writing this just prior to leaving for my grandmother’s funeral. She died a few weeks ago, and the memorial service is taking place in New Jersey this weekend. That would be sufficient excuse to miss a week by almost anyone’s reckoning. Add in a tough new day job, lingering physical illness, and unstable brain chemistry, and I could really play for some sympathy here. But it isn’t the complete picture.
The fact is that I need some time. I need to get regrounded, for my own health and also for the good of Escape Pod. Since May of 2005 we have not missed a week, and I’ve been very proud — perhaps hubristic — of having one of the longest uninterrupted runs in podcasting. We’ve achieved some amazing things almost by accident: we’ve become the number two SF market with about 25,000 listeners, we’ve brought attention to incredible stories by previously unknown authors, and we’ve grown into a real business with two additional podcasts. From a strategic point of view we’re doing all right. We’re not totally where I wanted to be by now, but fundamentally we’re succeeding.
But tactically, with Escape Pod in particular, I’ve been flying way too close to the ground. It’s been week-to-week and barely controlled chaos for a really long time now. My communication’s always been behind, but now it’s by months. The releases keep slipping, and sometimes I don’t know on Monday what the week’s story will be. It’s been costing me more sleep than usual. These are resolvable issues; I have a nice clear to-do list of obvious things that would make my job a lot easier. (”Better delegation” covers about half the list.) But I haven’t been stepping back to do any of them. Even when I have the time, it’s been hard to muster the energy.
Most of all, I’m afraid of losing my perspective. For a while now I’ve been pushing myself so hard on EP that it’s close to becoming more Not Fun than Fun. I’m in danger of forgetting why I’m doing it. And that is not something I can permit. If I lose my own passion for the stories, I know I won’t be the only one who suffers. That’s the point at which the podcast will start to suck.
So I’m doing a very, very difficult thing right now for the sake of long-term success: I’m letting myself fail for a few weeks. I’m taking a breather, relaxing a bit, and trying to forgive myself for doing it. I’m going to do right by my grandmother, and then I’m going to take a few days to just chill, and then I’m going to see what I need to do to get organized and get on top of the game again.
I know it’s risky to pin such things to a schedule. But I’m pretty confident in the range of this hiatus: it will not be less than two weeks, and it should not be more than four. The smart money’s on three weeks, putting us back on in the first week of December. We already have some great stuff pending. We have the next Union Dues story, and in my opinion it’s the best one yet. We have a fantastic alien world story from this year’s Cambpell Award winner, Mary Robinette Kowal. And Mur Lafferty is preparing what may be the most kickass science fiction Christmas story ever. I promise you we’ll be back soon, because dammit, I want to hear those things in audio.
Two logistical points:
First, PodCastle and Pseudopod aren’t affected. Rachel and Ann and Ben and Al are totally in the groove, and Escape Artists as a company is doing fine. This announcement only affects Escape Pod. So you’ve still got a short fiction fix, and if those aren’t enough, feel free to check out some others.
Second, I’m well aware that donors have a pretty good reason to be upset. You’re giving your money on an article of faith, after all — that we’ll use it to keep bringing you stories — and if we’re not bringing them to you, even temporarily, we’re not keeping that trust. We’ve recently had some very substantial donations, ones which I have yet to send proper thank-you messages for. (Those are coming too.) I’m hoping most of you will be cool with my reasoning here and bear with us. But if you’ve donated in the past few months and you object to this hiatus, e-mail me from your PayPal address and let me know, and I will refund your money to you, no questions asked. I would honestly rather keep your goodwill than your cash.
…So there you have it. That’s the honest explanation of what’s going on, as best I can state it. I’ll be spending the next few weeks gathering my wits, my priorities, and a team, probably in that order. And then you’ll have more stories. We’ll be back soon. In the meantime, thank you for any patience you’re willing to give.
And of course: Have Fun.
Richard Crawford on 13 Nov 2008 at 12:28 am: 1
Honestly, I was beginning to wonder how you can possibly keep it up. You’re doing a great job, and you deserve a breather. EP fans will still be here when you get back.
Jeff Schoch on 13 Nov 2008 at 12:29 am: 2
Mr. Eley, You do what you have to do. I know you’ve been busy for various reasons, and I’m just amazed that you’ve done so well this long with everything you seem to be juggling. Thank you for letting your fans know what is going on, and know that you have at least one guy who will be patiently waiting for the return.
Kim Stone on 13 Nov 2008 at 12:33 am: 3
Proud of you Steve. It takes balls to admit you need help and then take it when it’s there. So blessings to you and yours and get the rest, solace, and perspective you MUST have to survive.
Mark on 13 Nov 2008 at 12:34 am: 4
Everyone needs a little time off once in a while. I hope it helps you in the ways you need it to help. I’ll still be subscribed (as I’m sure many will be) when you get back.
Glenn Webber on 13 Nov 2008 at 12:35 am: 5
I would much rather wait a few weeks than risk EP becoming “not fun” and potentially changing. Perhaps a scheduled, annual hiatus is in order to provide an opportunity to catch your breath? I can only speak for myself, but I wouldn’t be going anywhere.
One of the best aspects of podcasting is how close and interactive the community is, so when personal issues arise, we understand. Take care.
Randy Noseworthy on 13 Nov 2008 at 12:37 am: 6
Steve, don’t feel bad at all! - I could only imagine that delegating some of this to someone else would be scary. As it’s your other Baby, besides Alex. - I don’t think that anyone would blame you to take off till the 1st, might be a little long, but it would all be understandable. - I’m trying to do much the same as you, balance work, fun and get myself pointed to where I want to go in the future. - Take your time, and find your compass…
Frooosh on 13 Nov 2008 at 12:41 am: 7
One of the benefits of podcasting is that (for most people) the checking and retrieval of the shows is completely automated - if you skip a week/month/year our podcatchers keep looking and will download whenever you post.
Hey, I’m at least a month behind anyway and need to catch up. Can you make it 2 months?
Thanks for the update, and the continued fabulous efforts.
Ms. Rubio on 13 Nov 2008 at 12:58 am: 8
Needing a break is perfectly normal. It helps to keep us focused in the long run. You are doing a wonderful job-and we will be here when you return.
Lance on 13 Nov 2008 at 1:15 am: 9
Take the time you need to recharge, sir. Balance is critical and a little R&R now and then helps keep all of us together in some way. Have a little fun yourself.
PhoenixK7 on 13 Nov 2008 at 1:29 am: 10
No worries. Most of the other podcasts out there have missed more than a few weeks and very few match the quality brought to escape pod in every episode. Take your time, do what you need to do. Having done a fair bit of therapy and prescription taking over time in order to figure out how to be relatively productive, I can understand that as well. It’s tough fighting one’s brain. This is especially so when there’s little or no good external logical reason for things suddenly going awry. Best wishes on making things not only manageable, but fun
lance Hirakawa on 13 Nov 2008 at 2:07 am: 11
Steve As much as I enjoy EP your well being is more important. Even if you never put out another episode I would say the same thing. I feel like this ppdcast has significantly improved my quality of life. Some of the stories have come along at the right time, or for one reason I identify with. Being Japanese and Jewish is an unusual combo but you have put out stories almost back to back.
I am a fan of a significant number of podcasts like JC Mur and Sigler. Yours has had the most impact on me emotionally. For that. Thank you.
please be well and have some fun.
Stevehello on 13 Nov 2008 at 2:15 am: 12
I bought your Escape Pod Collections DVD sometime ago and I still haven’t gotten through your first 130 plus stories on it. Thanks for having made it available to fill in for me at times like this. Yes, I could have downloaded the stories directly from your web site but, the stories transfer to my MP3 player much faster from your DVD.
listener on 13 Nov 2008 at 3:04 am: 13
Dude! There’s a lot of room between never missing a week of having one of the best podcasts around and “letting yourself fail”. It’s called normal, where yeah, the neurochemicals sometimes get screwy. Why not stop here in normal with the rest of us before heading straight to fail.
That’s to say: you deserve a break, as long as you need. I hope you re-discover your passion for this thing, but if you need to make more changes, I think you’ll find that the fail bar is not nearly so high as where you’ve set it.
Sabre Runner on 13 Nov 2008 at 4:35 am: 14
Just to reiterate: RSS catchers will get the new post when you decide it’s time. Taking a break is normal and not failing. I’ve only been onboard for a few months but this cast is one of my favorites. Do what you need for yourself and then for the podcast. Don’t let it ruin your life and don’t force it because if you do, that is when you fail, yourself and us.
You keep saying “Have Fun”. Well, my personal favorite farewell adds something more important before that one. So “Stay good and have fun.”
Hans Voss on 13 Nov 2008 at 4:37 am: 15
Steve,
Take all the time you need looking out for yourself and your family. I am sure that all 25.000 of us will understand (and all 25.000 of us better do, or I’ll send Scott Sigler to hunt you. ;-).
And if you worry about something like “the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few”, well, I always thought the Vulcans were unemotional …s anyway.
[fill in favorite expletive].
Steve, go, take (your own) sweet time, and please: HAVE FUN.
Jeff on 13 Nov 2008 at 7:37 am: 16
No apologies necessary, Steve. You deserve a break after such a long, uninterrupted run. We, your loyal listeners will still be here when you get back.
I’m all to familiar with anxiety and depression. It’s hell and it seems like no one around you really understands what’s going on in your head. Luckily, I’ve found the medication that works for me, but I know many people spend years trying different drugs and therapies before they find something that works for them. I hope your treatment works for you. Believe me, it IS possible to feel normal again.
Frank Weber on 13 Nov 2008 at 8:08 am: 17
After listening to your last posting I wanted to write to you. You are doing a diservice to yourself to tie creating a timely weekly podcast to a barometer of how well you are doing. People take vacations - you should too and your listeners expect it. After all, expectation makes it all the more interesting. So please do not let this hiatus be the last. And thanks for building something great.
Jim Boothe on 13 Nov 2008 at 8:14 am: 18
Of the dozen podcasts to which I subscribe, less than 5 drop with any consistency in their schedule, and I hang on to others “just in case”. This is the FIRST time I’ve had a podcaster inform me in advance of a delay.
God bless you for that alone, Mr. Eley. Seriously. And I echo every sentiment regarding the state of your well being taking precedence over the podcast. Hell, I’d subscribe if’n a new story hit my RSS once a MONTH. Magazines do, and I still subscribe to them too.
Lastly, my sincere condolences on the loss of your grandmother.
Dariusz on 13 Nov 2008 at 8:25 am: 19
Steve,
I only subscribed a couple of days ago having heard your spot on “Pods and blogs” on “Up All Night” on 5 live in the UK. That means I’ve got about 35 stories to listen to until you get back on your feet. From what I’ve heard so far I’ll be a regular subscriber so you needn’t worry about me (or many others from the comments above) running off elsewhere. You’re the first non BBC podcast I’ve subscribed to and your approach to your donations wins you all the good will I have. I look forward to having you back soon but please don’t think you’re failing. Everyone needs a break now and then and it sounds like you’ve been putting one off for longer than is healthy. Get yourself together. We’ll be here when you get back.
Ally.
Tad on 13 Nov 2008 at 8:45 am: 20
Mr. Steve,
I’m sure I’m not the only one here who has noticed: Rachel AND Ann; Ben AND Al; Steve AND ??? (You Sith Editors always come in pairs, right?
)
Escape Artists is a big deal precisely because it is a labor of love that caught on. You deserve a vacation, and you will deserve one again one of these days. You already know you need to delegate, so why not take aboard a “second” to help you fly a little higher?
(No, I’m not offering, because my organizational skills suck, and I’m already stretched too thin to listen to all three podcasts on a weekly basis.)
We love you, Steve, and we love what you do. Feel better!
furicle on 13 Nov 2008 at 9:48 am: 21
Steve - we need you more than a so called perfect schedule. Lord knows I’m not keeping up just listening… We’ll be here when you feel you it’s time to join us.
Gary The Great on 13 Nov 2008 at 10:13 am: 22
No problem Steve, we’ll just hit relativistic speeds, and it will be like nothing was ever missed.
Do what you gotta do. We will be waiting though…
Thinkingcaveman on 13 Nov 2008 at 10:35 am: 23
Get well, Get happy - I am content to listen to a personal greatest hits run for a few weeks.
Now should be a family time - you are a mogul and Vacations are Allowed.
Rick Stringer on 13 Nov 2008 at 10:38 am: 24
You have to take care of yourself first. I’ve always marveled at how you are able to get your podcast out every week along with everything else you are doing. I’m often hard pressed to get mine out once a month.
All the best Steve. We will be here when you get back.
DDog on 13 Nov 2008 at 10:48 am: 25
Please, take all the time you need. With the little I know of your life, there have been several points since I started listening last summer where a break would have been perfectly understandable, and you just kept trucking along. I’m having trouble finding the time to put out only a 20-minute podcast once a month, and I don’t even have a wife, child, full-time job, etc. You have a lot on your plate and it’s okay to take a break. It doesn’t mean you failed.
I’m sorry for your loss. Hang in there.
Tiktok on 13 Nov 2008 at 11:12 am: 26
Take care of yourself first. Always. The stories will come later, when you love doing it.
Anarkey on 13 Nov 2008 at 12:04 pm: 27
Condolences on the passing of your grandmother, Steve. Thanks for bringing us the podcast so faithfully for so long. I look forward to hearing it again in December. As others have said, I don’t see it as failure, but as well-deserved break. As you said, there’s other Escape Artists podcasts to tide me over. From this vantage I safely say you rawk, even when it doesn’t feel like it to you.
Anarkey on 13 Nov 2008 at 12:06 pm: 28
Suggestion: maybe you should close to subs while you’re on hiatus?
m on 13 Nov 2008 at 12:41 pm: 29
I can’t imagine one of your loyal listeners giving you a hard time because you need a few weeks off. Look around - none of these comments are negative. What an amazing amount of positive energy coming your way! Get well, and be well.
Please please don’t feel like a failure if you decide to take off until 2009 because December is a notoriously crazy month. We’ll still be here when you get back.
Andie on 13 Nov 2008 at 12:49 pm: 30
Steve,
First, my condolences for the loss of your grandmother. I lost mine in January and the ache still has not gone away, so while everyone is different and has their own process, I can kind of understand what you are going through, and my heart goes out to you.
Second, take as much time as you need to relax, rejuvenate, and just plain rest. You deserve a vacation just as much as your listeners, and we’ll still be here when you get back. You do a great service–please take care of yourself so that you can continue to do so!
Just a little suggestion…perhaps you could plan a yearly vacation and just put on the website that EP runs the week of January 1 - November 30 (or whatever dates you choose) so that a) Those Who Donate know ahead of time and you won’t feel the need to stress about them and b) you have built in time for a vacation every year. Just a thought…
Raving_Lunatic on 13 Nov 2008 at 12:52 pm: 31
I think most people have said what I wanted to say. The fact that this has had 29 comments in such a short amount of time and I think all of them positive shows that your listeners really care. I know I do. Please, break for as long as you feel you need to. You’ve given us stories every week for three and a bit years, so I can’t complain. Take some time out for your own life, and I promise that we’ll all still be here when you come back!
Brian on 13 Nov 2008 at 1:10 pm: 32
Steve, you’ve been doing a marvelous job for the past 3+ Years. To my knowledge you’ve had zero missed weeks and fewer late postings than alot of the other podcasts out there. I agree with the people who are saying you should take now through the entire month of december off. This is one of the most stressful and dysfunctional times of the year, and the more of a rest you give yourself the better Escapepod is likely to be when you come back, We’ll all still be here waiting for you!
Jason Workman on 13 Nov 2008 at 1:15 pm: 33
Take care Steve. I’m sure we will all await patiently for the end of the hiatus.
Robert Joseph (CyberNetKids) on 13 Nov 2008 at 1:54 pm: 34
Steve you are amazing. This is my first time commenting on your site although I have listened to all your podcast over the last two years since I met you. You deserve some time off and I don’t see this as failing for a few weeks but a very mature growth. Thanks for doing what you do and being who you are. - Robert
Will on 13 Nov 2008 at 2:18 pm: 35
So much has been said already that I really don’t need to say it but…
Take care of yourself.
You have created something wonderful. I always wondered what it would be like to live in the times of Campbell when new astounding, heartwarming and thoughtful stories would arrive each issue.
Thank you for letting me find out.
Four years ago I moved to a different (non-English speaking) country. While I worked with English-speakers none of them lived in my village, I had no car, no idea where I could buy English books and my only access to the net was at work. Tough times.
Then I discovered Escape Pod.
Imperial is a classic. Thank You. I was going stir crazy - then you opened the door to the universe.
Since then Escape Pod has made me laugh, think, brought tears to my eyes and sent shivers down my spine. You’ve brought back the sense of awe.
So Steve - are you allowed time off?
Well: 1: You’re human (unless you’re keeping something really quiet) so the answer is- Yes! 2: You’ve done something truly amazing for which you have my true, honest, heartfelt thanks. So yes Mr Eley - take all the time you need.
JohnnyBoy on 13 Nov 2008 at 2:35 pm: 36
Steve,
I don’t know what to say that has not already been said. You have done an outstanding job and it looks like everyone would agree we me on that. Everyone needs to take a mental heath day once in a while and after four years of hard work you most of all deserve to take as many as you need. You have built something great here. I hope that you can find a way to maintain it. And by what I have seen hare. All of the good wishes and concern for you and your health. it’s a real Jimmy Stewart moment. Check your pocket I bet you find some flower peddles. You are loved by an increadible amount of people and a person who is loved that much can’t help but to find the light at the end of the tunnel. I wish you good health and I will light a candle or two for you.
Josh Seckler on 13 Nov 2008 at 2:37 pm: 37
Steve, if anyone deserves a break, it is you. Get things settled and take as much time as you need for yourself and don’t worry about anything here, we will still be here; no one is going to leave because you need some time for yourself after three straight years of podcasting. Just promise us that you will put yourself first and make yourself happy before worrying about us. Thank you Steve, thank YOU for everything.
Jake on 13 Nov 2008 at 3:11 pm: 38
My deepest condolences on your grandmother’s death, and think we all find this infinitely preferable to Anna writing in to tell us we’re on hiatus because you wound up in hospital with a peptic ulcer or worse.
phoomp on 13 Nov 2008 at 3:41 pm: 39
Take your time Steve.
I owe my introduction to the world of podcast fiction to you and cannot criticize you for needing to take a time-out.
Spencer on 13 Nov 2008 at 5:00 pm: 40
Steve, you are amazing. I have never really been a big science fiction fan until I happened to stumble across your podcast about 4 months back. Since then I have listened to all the episodes of Psuedopod, PodCastle, and I am on episode 100 of Escapepod. You have converted me as a big fan and I have been doing my small part by spreading the word. Your weekly voice is a bright point of my week and please take all the time you need but know I will be here waiting for the next audio fix! Thank you for all that you have done and will do!
MiaJ on 13 Nov 2008 at 5:07 pm: 41
I wanted to let you know the impact you’ve had on me. I’m a mother of young children who hasn’t finished a book in years because I haven’t had the time. Then a friend mentioned your podcast to my husband. He started listening and I noticed it on his ipod.
I listened to my first while cleaning and was carried away. My bathroom was sparkling and I hadn’t even noticed the work. Now I look forward to EPs stories each week to help keep me sane while doing housework. And I’ve added several other podcasts, in addition to audiobooks to my library. If you stop by my house nearly any day of the week, I’ll have one headphone in. (Can’t wear both because my kids need some attention too
Thanks to you, Steve, I’ve rediscovered my love of a good story and of sci-fi in particular. Thanks for helping this mom get a little bit of her old self back.
Take as much time as you need. We’ll all still be here when you come back.
Jim Harris on 13 Nov 2008 at 5:50 pm: 42
Good for you! Everyone needs a vacation - I bet even Playboy photographers want a week off now and then. You should schedule in regular holidays in the future, so you won’t feel guilty.
And this makes me feel less guilty about not keeping up with your tremendous output of quality podcasts.
John on 13 Nov 2008 at 8:41 pm: 43
Steve,
I don’t think I could say anything more then what has been said. Take some time to smell the rose’s. I Wish you and your family all the best.
Joesph Hottendorf Jr on 13 Nov 2008 at 10:25 pm: 44
Steve,
Thank You
Seraph on 13 Nov 2008 at 10:55 pm: 45
I’ll join the chorus too - Sorry about your grandmother man. Enjoy a well-earned break. I’ll miss hearing from you for a few weeks, and I’ll be looking forward to your return ! You rock !
Jacques Oosthuizen on 13 Nov 2008 at 11:02 pm: 46
You know you have our eternal loyalty and know that you never owe us any apologies. Thanks for giving us a sense of wonder every week.
Thorpe on 13 Nov 2008 at 11:23 pm: 47
Thanks for the heads up, it is graciously appreciated. My condolences for your troubles. You do have a lot to be proud of (I know 1st hand since episode ~30) and no reason to be bummed that your taking a brake. It is a good reminder to us (your spoiled listeners) of how much effort you have put into the last 183 episodes. I am sure I speak for everyone, “Thank You, Thank You, Thank You!” Feel better soon!
Rob on 14 Nov 2008 at 12:22 am: 48
Dittos to the above. Funny, I came to the site to write you a “hang in there bro” message after your last ep (and ask if you’ve tried the http://crazymeds.us yet ha ha, seems I’m heading that way myself)… anyway…
Do Hang In There Bro. If it helps, look forward to coming back and being all hubretical with your kickass #1 show.
Scott Roth on 14 Nov 2008 at 1:55 am: 49
Steve, do what you need to do! Escape Pod is one of my very favorites and I really look forward to hearing you when you’re back! My donations will certainly keep coming in the meantime. Best wishes to you and your family!
Julian on 14 Nov 2008 at 7:49 am: 50
Just want you to know, as an aspiring writer I look to the wonderful stories on escapepod as a motivation to hone my craft, and to get better and better so that I can one day submit something.
As a science fiction fan, everytime there is a new story on EP, my life is just a little bit brighter. Thanks so much for what you do.
Colin F on 14 Nov 2008 at 9:31 am: 51
Steve, I appreciate you letting us know about the hiatus. Please do take all the time you need before resuming things here.
It’s not as though the Internet is in any danger of running out of things for us to read / listen to in the next few weeks!
The long term health of the podcast (and it’s host!) are far more important than a few weekly deadlines.
All the best.
Ian on 14 Nov 2008 at 9:58 am: 52
Just cause its a weekly podcast doesn’t mean you can’t take a vacation. As I’ve learned over the years “When things get their most hectic, take a break. They’ll still be there when you get back and you’ll be much more successful on dealing with them.”
Keep up the great job and enjoy your time off. Gives me a chance to catch up on some other podcasts now.
Dave Mck on 14 Nov 2008 at 10:13 am: 53
All the best, as we say. Thank you so much
Alexander on 14 Nov 2008 at 11:48 am: 54
Hi Steve,
please take care of yourself! I have just finished a year-long project full of “not doing it right”, so I know how that can make you feel. And I don’t even have to deal with strange brain chemistry on top of that. When you come back, I’ll definitely be here.
Sorry to hear about your grandmother.
Jeff Hite on 14 Nov 2008 at 1:09 pm: 55
Steve (Mr. Eley) Take your well deserved Break. We all need time for ourselves.
Robert on 14 Nov 2008 at 5:30 pm: 56
Steve, You have made a positive impact on my life, I wanted to thank you for that. As many others have more eloquently commented you have built a wonderful community. Your fans will anxiously/patiently await your return.
Tim on 14 Nov 2008 at 5:45 pm: 57
Steve, 183 straight weeks of podcasts? I’d say you’ve earned a little break. Be with your family; rest up; do something good for yourself. When you’re ready, pick up the microphone again. Just…well, I REALLY want to hear Mur’s new Christmas story.
Seriously, I appreciate all you’ve done and will do for this show. Take care.
emmajeans on 14 Nov 2008 at 7:25 pm: 58
With most full time jobs you get four weeks off per year (at least in Australia). By rights, you have a few months owed to you… Hope you have a kick-arse break and come back full of vim and vigour!
ajames on 14 Nov 2008 at 8:16 pm: 59
Another voice in the chorus. You’ve earned the rest, and how.
Condolences for your grandmother, and my best to you and Anna. What you’ve accomplished is amazing and you’ve touched many lives in a personal way, and made them better.
geekinco on 14 Nov 2008 at 9:23 pm: 60
Steve, You do a great job on every story released, that what makes this podcast so great.
Take some time off for you and your family, get you batteries recharged, life support systems back up to decent levels and lastly HAVE FUN!
JimO on 14 Nov 2008 at 11:45 pm: 61
Steve,
very understandable though I will miss your voice for a few weeks, come back strong and get back to where you need to be
jj on 15 Nov 2008 at 1:50 am: 62
To Mr. Steve Eley and all others who care to read,
It’s quite amazing how the lives of those around us seem so similar. I’ve been having trouble keeping up with everything as well between school work and sports and my almost non-existent social life. Things just seem to pile up endlessly around me. But quite honestly, I couldn’t live without it; I need all those distractions to keep myself sitting down and thinking which is when my troubles really seem to set in. I only listened to the outro for the last story (I’ll probably add more to this when I hear it. Sorry, I just like to talk.) Anyways, I heard how you were having some psychological issues and how you need to talk to someone and I thought I was going to cry. I had to sit down because it felt like to you were speaking directly to me. Unfortunately, being outgoing and talking are not some of my strong points; to add to that misfortune, I really have no reason, for myself or anyone else, to talk to anyone. I know this isn’t the best place to bring my problems and I hope this doesn’t get around, but I do feel so much more comfortable expressing my problems here rather than anywhere else.
I’m not sure even why I’m talking about this. I guess I’m trying to show how important this is to me, but, like I said before, I’m not very good at talking. shifts awkwardly
My regards to you and yours for the loss of a loved one. Take all the time you need to sort everything out, you of all people definitely deserve it. You have never and probably will never fail any of us ‘Scapers just by doing what you do.
We’ll always have your back. (I’m not going to give my regular web name, because I don’t want anyone to bother me with this later.)
John Sullivan on 15 Nov 2008 at 2:36 am: 63
Steve, Take the time you need. No one asked you to do EP, but we are happy that you do. If you didn’t enjoy it I wouldn’t expect you to keep doing it. After you have gotten yourself re-centered I hope you’ll be back. But even if you aren’t I am grateful for my reasons for what you did for yours. I wish you well,
oldguypaul on 15 Nov 2008 at 4:29 am: 64
Steve,I was going to add some brilliant comments in support to the mix but everything has been covered by smarter and faster folks than I.
Condolences on your loss and Kudos on Escape Pod. I will be waiting….I have a dozen Podcastles to catch up on!
I just listened to your outtrow on the psychotic spacer story. I I was a ,ong term manager and learned the most important item is insuring you have good folks surrounding you and delegate, delegate, delegate.
SSRI’s can be very nice stabilizers.
I will be here whne you come back
Arthur Dent on 15 Nov 2008 at 11:49 am: 65
Hey Steve,
Of course we’ll all miss our weekly SF story but of course of course you ought to take all the time you need to relax. Plug back in only when you’re ready.
Given your description, the issues you are facing appear to be largely personal. EP is your baby, and you are obviously entitled to do with it what you want–you could even shut it down permanently and none of your listeners or donors would have any legitimate reason to complain. After all, you made us no promises.
Perhaps–perhaps–EP has now become bigger than you had anticipated, and bigger than you (can handle). With such a talented group of people listening and donating, I expect that a call for volunteers during an outro would bring countless messages to your inbox with offers to accept and carry out all manner of duties you could delegate.
If there tasks that you can delegate to members of the EP family, please let us know. I’d be flattered to help.
Anony on 15 Nov 2008 at 3:36 pm: 66
Steve, words fail me. I hope you feel better.
Steven Smethurst on 15 Nov 2008 at 4:00 pm: 67
Take all the time that you need and get better. there is nothing more important that your own heath.
Get volunteers to help you out! there is no way that you could do it all by yourself. Find other to help you out.
Norman on 15 Nov 2008 at 7:10 pm: 68
Steve, I’ve never seen a reply list with only positive things said. You’ve started a great community here, a lot of people care about you. Thanks for your openness and honesty. Take care of yourself.
Scatterbrained on 15 Nov 2008 at 7:15 pm: 69
I’m speechless…no, literally I have nothing witty nor helpful to say, other than I hope Steve Eley does what he needs to do, to get where he needs to go.
adam on 15 Nov 2008 at 7:20 pm: 70
you are the bread and butter of my weekly downloads. I found you 6 months ago and I listened to every escape pod over the next 2 weeks. I was blown away that I was missing such a internet treasure. Now i have a hard enough time emptying my cats litter box let alone managing a substantial pod cast, work, family and the death of a loved one. its the right thing to do. we look forward to hearing from you.
Me on 15 Nov 2008 at 8:30 pm: 71
Don’t be proud. It doesn’t matter about expectations or targets or being a certain thing. It is only a podcast, not your life.
Wait till 2009(/10!) if you need to, to get yourself back on par. Better a good ‘podcaster than a broken one.
RanRan on 15 Nov 2008 at 8:35 pm: 72
Heya!
1st: Shock! 2nd: Disappointment! 3rd: Sympathy. 4th: I can’t believe how much I look forward to EP, and I’m still catching up, currently at EP127! 5th: Midway through my own life (age 50), I still have both parents, and I consider myself incredibly fortunate for that. 6th: Brain chemistry: Can’t live with it, can’t live without it…
Take care of yourself, Steve. We’ll be here when you get back.
RanRan
DrCrisp on 15 Nov 2008 at 11:42 pm: 73
Ctrl-Alt-Delete
Dave (aka Nev the Deranged) on 16 Nov 2008 at 3:18 am: 74
Wow. That’s quite an outpouring of support. I think this got more comments than even some of the most controversial stories here- and I don’t see a complaint among them.
Even if EP didn’t have a vast back-catalog for me to fall back on, I’d still not begrudge you some well-earned time off. Trust me, I know how it is to bite off more than you can chew, even with the best of intentions.
Nobody here is going to blame you for having your priorities straight, Mr. Eley. Take care of yourself and we’ll be here with open arms when you’re ready to come back to us.
Just make sure you DO come back, or you’ll find an army of shambling fiction-starved zombies milling about on your front lawn, moaning “pooodcaaaasts..” =P
Martin Edwards on 16 Nov 2008 at 5:10 am: 75
Hi, Steve
Be well, be safe, be back soon!
earthspot on 16 Nov 2008 at 5:30 am: 76
Steve, yours is the only podcast of which I take care never to miss an episode. If I bother with another podcast it’s on your recommendation. If you take a well-deserved rest, I’ll get by. (I do have a backlog.) But if you shipwreck yourself… that’s a big piece gone missing from my life. So optimise your “hiatus” for effective long-term recovery — and don’t stint it. And now for something rather personal. There’s a raft of tribute on this list and there seems little scope to add much to it. That’s if you even bother to read this far. But if you do, may I diffidently offer a grain of experience, crystallised from a lifetime, which you may not hear anywhere else? Maybe you don’t need to read it now, but in a year or two. I’ve been a mental health worker, though a long time ago. I’ve known doctors kill themselves at the onset of heart disease. I’ve known senior psychiatrists divorce their depressed spouses in obscene haste. Why? Because they basically don’t believe in the effectiveness of their own profession? Or because they can’t face the hassle? I’m not so smart as that: I’ve nursed a spouse through not one but two separate florid episodes: hospitalisation, ECT, the lot. I’ve also been on the receiving end of help myself. That’s just by way of credentials. For my part, I’m in not the slightest doubt you’ll bounce back — and without irrecoverable damage to your life, or (ultimately) to Escape Pod. It’s aftershocks that take their toll. Whenever, to get someone over a bad patch, I’ve extended more credit than others judged wise (and I’ve done it without question at the time) a year or two later I’ve been staggered at their ingratitude. Conversely whenever someone — family, friend or employer — has done the same for me, a year or two later when I’m fine and well I’ve found it hard to forgive them. (For what? I’ve never really known.) This won’t happen to you. Merely to be aware of the possibility of such perversity in the human mind is to be armed against it. Blessings on the memory of your grandmother — and regards to Anna and the children.
BabylonLurker on 16 Nov 2008 at 3:15 pm: 77
Steve,
Condolences for your loss
If you need a break - take it.
Take your own advice : Have Fun
I found your podcast after haveíng had an accident, and have listened to moset of the stories since then.
Some highlights and occasionally a story I did not finish (precious few of those)
It is one of the weekly podcasts I look forward to, and I will recommend it to anyone with an interest in scifi.
Why not make a habit of a break, say twice a year. There are enough stories around, but most often your choices suit me very well.
Be safe - and make sure you come back - take the break as long as you need.
Knic on 16 Nov 2008 at 5:08 pm: 78
Take as many breaks as you want. I would hate to see you get burned up so bad you stop doing the show. The show brings me great happiness listening every week. Do episodes every other week, once a month, once every once in awhile, or just the hugos(please don’t stop doing the hugos, I love the hugos). I have found a bunch of stories I liked(btw I like listening to stories more than reading). And had some great times listening to them with my fiancee and then discussing them. Have fun with your life, you probably aren’t right now and I am sorry about your loss. I wish you luck on your life. Anyways if it comes to ending escapepod I have a few comments. If you trust someone, and don’t mind them taking it THEIR way, then hand it over. Otherwise just put up a sign saying “It’s over”. Thank you for all the shows!!!
Merrill on 16 Nov 2008 at 8:29 pm: 79
Everyone is entitled to a vacation on a regular basis.
Julio on 16 Nov 2008 at 9:27 pm: 80
Hang in there.
one more supporter.
Unfocused Me on 16 Nov 2008 at 11:06 pm: 81
I’ve noticed that it’s been a long time since anyone else did the reading, and I’d been wondering how you managed that on top of everything else. My condolences for your loss, and good luck with the R&R. We’ll be looking forward to your return.
Scott Whidden on 17 Nov 2008 at 11:03 am: 82
Thank you for countless hours of thought provoking entertainment. Escape Pod has been one of my primary refuges from my own high-stress life. You deserve your own refuge. I am glad that you have the wisdom to take time now, before it became necessary to shut down shop entirely. This is partly me being selfish, and partly because I respect that an accomplishment like Escape Pod must be (or should be) deeply satisfying.
I’ve been meaning to say thanks for the past year or so since I found your website. Now seems to be the time. I’m dyslexic so my reading speed is slow, and I also have a 3 hour commute each day. I’m constantly on the move with a high-pressure job and two kids. So, your contribution has really made a positive impact on my life.
That being said, I’d hate to think of Escape Pod taking the fun out of your life. Rest up, and know that you have patient supportive and appreciative fans. After reading enough of these comments I think that’s pretty clear.
Oh yeah, and have fun.
Malcolm on 17 Nov 2008 at 2:26 pm: 83
Your pod cast has become an important escape in my weekly life (and to judge by the responses here I am not the only one) and your stories and insights have all been well worth the listen. It’s easy to get tunnel vision on such a grand project and focus on some perceived concept of perfection. It’s not as easy but far more important to focus on your own wise words “have fun”. My own daughter is the same age as your son and I believe that our main goal should be that when they discuss us sometime in the future they say that we always had enough time for them, we weren’t complete nitwits and we had a lot of fun.
Whitney on 17 Nov 2008 at 3:12 pm: 84
I listen to over 30 hours of audio a week, because I am able to listen to my iPod at work. Because of that, I have a list of over 35 podcast I subscribe to. That list is in constant flux, because it’s easy to get tired of many podcasts after listening to a few of each one. Escape pod is one I have not tired of and will not tire of. For all your amazing work, THANK YOU.
Steve, if you need help, you have a huge base of listeners, and I don’t know about others, but if it would mean that escape pod could continue, I would be happy to give any help I am able to give. However, I don’t know if my particular skill set would be any help. But if there is anything I could do, I would be happy to. All you have to do is ask.
Also, I agree with what some others have said here… you should schedule time off each year. Maybe two weeks off each year, one in June, one in December, or whatever time would work best for you. Everyone needs a break from almost everything they do sometimes. You have not failed, not even close.
One last thing… I would like to recommend that you all check out Radio Lab during Steve’s well-earned break. It is from WNYC and it is put together VERY well and they have over 25 episodes in their feed right now. It’s kind of like science for dummies, but it’s really entertaining, even if you already know about what they are talking about.
JJC on 17 Nov 2008 at 6:06 pm: 85
Hang in there.
Mike on 17 Nov 2008 at 11:31 pm: 86
Your podcasts help make a long commute fly by. For that, I am grateful. Take what you need. Rest assured…. We’ll. Be. Here. There is nothing else this good. And if taking some time for yourself is what it takes to keep you interested in doing it, then by all means…. My best to you and yours.
Stuart on 18 Nov 2008 at 1:09 am: 87
I recently donated about $50 by check and I’m not upset at all. I think you absolutely need to take a break–I know what it’s like to be losing the race on a treadmill.
Go for a bike ride. Spend time with your family.
When you get inspired, record a few episodes so you’ll have them in advance so you can maybe only stress about it once a month instead of every week.
But most importantly, take care of yourself. We all enjoy the stories, obviously, but you need to enjoy doing them.
Kurt F. on 18 Nov 2008 at 1:34 am: 88
Its odd how much I can relate to what you’re going through, from the brain chemistry to the family loss (my grandmothers funeral is tomorrow). So, take some time. You’ve more than earned it, you deserve it, and most importantly, you need it. I know how hard it can be to organize and motivate with ADHD and depression, so the fact that you have gone this long without missing a week is unbelievably impressive to me. My condolences to you and your family, and I hope a couple of weeks with the weight of the world off your shoulders will bring you some peace of mind. We will all still be here when you get back.
Benjamin on 18 Nov 2008 at 6:16 am: 89
Steve, I was diagnosed with Adult ADD about 4 years ago and all the disparate and disjointed puzzle pieces of my fell into place.
I still fail quite a lot, and regularly find myself in pretty deep funks when I do. I usually say, though, about getting the diagnosis that I feel like my entire life I’ve been wandering about in a jungle, stumbling over roots and getting tangled up in vines. Getting my diagnosis didn’t take me out of the jungle, but it gave me a map to start to find my way around and to avoid the worst traps.
Now after a few stints of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, I’ve flushed out more details of the map and started to find walkable paths to wander through my jungle. I’m still in it and might never get out, but I might learn to feel at home here and make something really good out of it.
I’ve been a listener of EscapePod for quite a while now and wondered for a long time how you juggled everything you were involved in and made it work. When you went public with your diagnosis, I just nodded and exclaimed, “Of course! He’s a fellow ADDer!”
I’ve been thoroughly impressed with you ability to keep EscapePod going so regularly for so long. Continuity is so hard for someone with ADD and the desperate need for new challenges and new inspiring starts makes it doubly hard to keep a project going for that long. Kudos to you and kudos to Anna for putting up with you!
(My wife knows what that’s like!)
I’m happy you’ve taken this hiatus and hope it’s enough for you. Maybe you should schedule regular breaks during the year to give yourself some breathing room, like a 2 week break every 3 months.
Lastly, let me get a little critical of you, but in a good way: You apologized to donors for the break and offered to refund donations if anybody was unsatisfied.
Well, I’m a donor. No big-wig, but a $5 a week donor for nearly 2 years now. And I was a little ticked-off at your offer to refund donations.
EscapePod is free. Donations are totally voluntary. I don’t see what you do as a business providing me with a service, I see you as an enthusiast doing what you love doing! I, as a donor, am not your customer, I’m your supporter!
I don’t donate to EscapePod in order to get a weekly story, I donate because I love what you’re doing and want to help you continue to do it!
I’d understand offering to refund donations if you were about to shut down EscapePod altogether (God forbid!), but as a donor, it’s in my interest to see that EscapePod, the project, and Steve Ely, the brains behind the project, keeps going.
I wouldn’t be much of a supporter if I demanded a refund of a voluntary donation because you took a hiatus, in order to strengthen EscapePod!
And, Steve, I hope that you don’t think of us donors like customers, but your friends and fans.
We’re here for you, not the other way around.
All the best! Benjamin
PS. If there’s any way I can get involved in EscapePod and help you out with the production, contact me. I could screen a few stories. I’ve been told I’ve got a good radio voice and am a good story teller. I’ve also got some limited access to a recording studio.
Gideon on 18 Nov 2008 at 6:42 am: 90
Take your time. Take it easy. Do some life maintenance. I’m grateful for what you’ve put together, and positively wish some R&R upon you. - Gideon.
Jeremiah McCoy on 18 Nov 2008 at 8:22 am: 91
Most everyone else has said what I would say. My condolences on your loss. Taking time is completely understandable.
I will add when you start things up again, you don’t have to go it alone then either. You have a wide range of friends. Many of them with time and knowledge. Let them help out. It will hopefully help maintain your energy and sanity if you let some other folks help carry the burden.
Love the show. I look forward to when it returns. Keep your chin up.
Eweiand on 18 Nov 2008 at 1:01 pm: 92
Good luck.
Get well.
Hear you when you get back.
AussieFan on 18 Nov 2008 at 2:49 pm: 93
You’ve been spot on with the stories every week, you deserve a break! It’s not only the stories that we care about. We care about the podcaster too!
RedStone on 18 Nov 2008 at 2:57 pm: 94
I was going to add something, but it looks like it has all been said.
so: Ditto
Calculating... on 18 Nov 2008 at 3:40 pm: 95
love escape pod and you and your family!
take a break, you most definitely deserve it!
it makes me sad that escape pod won’t be around for a little while, but that is totally okay as long as you promise to get your life back under control! i don’t want you coming back feeling like everything is crazy!!
Jeska on 18 Nov 2008 at 7:37 pm: 96
We’ll be waiting. Take care.
me on 18 Nov 2008 at 8:03 pm: 97
Good luck, get well, look forward to Escape Pod Christmas!
TurboFool on 19 Nov 2008 at 12:04 am: 98
I was kind of curious about that empty spot on my Zune. Glad to know there’s a good, reasonable, understandable, supportable excuse for it. You have our love, our respect, and our understanding. You’ve given more than enough to us to deserve whatever you can get. If all we have available to give you is some time you don’t have to be responsible to us, then you’re letting us off easy. And I’m more than happy to let my subscription continue despite the lack of content. I came into Escape Pod late (February of this year), so consider it payback for all the stories prior to that.
Alan on 19 Nov 2008 at 1:54 am: 99
Sending good thoughts to you and yours.
Zoe on 19 Nov 2008 at 5:25 am: 100
Hi Steve,
I was glad to read your explantion here as I was a little worried about you because you sounded a bit down in the last outro I listened to. I think Escape Pod is great and I really enjoy the stories. But to echo many of my fellow fans here, you & your family are far more important and yes everyone needs a holiday sometime. So chill out, get some rest and come bouncing back to us if/when it feels right to do so. Love, Peace & Jelly Babies (a slogan I once saw on a post card) from Holland.
Shamash on 19 Nov 2008 at 7:59 am: 101
Steve,
Take all the time you need. Your loyal fan base will still be here. We would rather you find this fun, and be happy, than to let the quality slip because it became “work”.
Blessings and warm fuzzy thoughts to you and yours. We will be waiting for your return.
Guess it is time to check out some “vintage” EP.
Hazel on 19 Nov 2008 at 8:08 am: 102
Ditto the above. Joined your listening family this year,it’s a bit of worry how addicted I have become in a short time. You are a master at what you do. Spend time with your family, rest up, take more holidays - all well deserved. Gives me time to re-listen and catch up - thanks for that. Hope to hear you again before too long and that you have a big front lawn. (See above)
Niel Crafford on 19 Nov 2008 at 4:15 pm: 103
What courage it took, you are an amazing man.Take all the time you need. It is you time now!!
Cognosco on 19 Nov 2008 at 6:48 pm: 104
I cannot add a single word to improve upon what has already been said regarding our condolences, our gratitude for what you’ve provided so far to all of us - and the fact that we all want you to take care of yourself so EP can continue. So the only thing I CAN add is to suggest that anyone who needs an EP fix do what I’m gonna do - listen to some old episodes for a few weeks. For cryin’ out loud, there are 183 of them to choose from and I know I’m going to enjoy some of them as much this time as I did the first time I heard them!
Safe travels, Steve!
Disquisition on 19 Nov 2008 at 11:57 pm: 105
Reading through these comments brought me to tears. Anyone can publish audio fiction, it takes something special to build a truly loving community. Do what you need to do Steve.
Doug Waterman on 20 Nov 2008 at 12:04 am: 106
Please don’t let this lapse in episodes be viewed as failure. Let your time off be viewed as reward for an amazingly successful effort. Take care of yourself, take time to grieve for those lost and take solace in the comments posted here.
Calculating... on 20 Nov 2008 at 2:18 am: 107
see how much we love you?
get better!
maxiewawa on 20 Nov 2008 at 2:19 am: 108
You’ve done a fantastic job, have a great “product” (inverted commas because it’s free!) and deserve a break.
Good luck!
rani23 on 20 Nov 2008 at 3:07 am: 109
Some quotes for you to ponder, Steve:
I have not failed. I’ve just found 10,000 ways that won’t work. - Thomas Edison
The best way out is always through. - Robert Frost
Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly. - Robert F. Kennedy
And of course, my favorite:
Fall down nine times, get up ten.
You’re doing a great and amazing job and I utterly love EP. Take a well deserved break, okay?
Libby on 20 Nov 2008 at 3:03 pm: 110
Escape Pod is the best, and well worth the wait. Success and failure are at the mercy of our own definitions.
JDH52 on 20 Nov 2008 at 3:25 pm: 111
I’ve listened to Escape Pod for over a year and never miss an episode. I checked on i-tunes for this week’s story and it didn’t show up. I googled the escape pod web site - I had never been here before - and I read Steve’s note and all these responses. It’s amazing that about one in two hundred listeners have responded here, that’s got to be a remarkable statistic. I’ve not made any effort to join in the discussion before, but I’ve enjoyed hearing the reviews from the previous weeks’ stories. I’ve also enjoyed the personalization of Steve injecting Steve’s life into the intros and extros of these stories. I agree with the sentiments above about being no biggy taking a break and taking care of one’s self. Coming here and moving one step closer into Steve’s community moves me to make my first donation. Steve – take care. You are a success.
bill on 20 Nov 2008 at 5:10 pm: 112
Steve,
Thank you.
Take a break.
My condolences to you and your family.
I look forward to the next story, but if it were not to happen, you have given us an awful lot of good.
Regards
Bill.
Esuna on 20 Nov 2008 at 5:17 pm: 113
Steve, As a person who has battled depression and bipolar for years, I know exactly where you’re coming from, and I wanted to tell you that you are doing exactly the right thing. Take care of you. We’re not going anywhere.
James on 20 Nov 2008 at 11:33 pm: 114
Please take your time, get better, and return to us when you’re ready.
A lot of podcasts these days have a pretty loose schedule. Maybe that would work better for you.
Cheers James
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Zytheran on 21 Nov 2008 at 1:20 am: 116
Steve, Life is meant to be fun and we do not expect you to work your way into the ground. Most of us have leave and holidays every year and you should be no exception. Get a break, get some rest, get some minions. We’ll still be here.
Jon on 21 Nov 2008 at 5:24 am: 117
ARGH! No EP for a few weeks?! Life is ruined! LOL
Enjoy a holiday. Everyone else does.
And think about getting more guest narrators. You do it almost every single week. No wonder you’re worn out!
David Steele on 21 Nov 2008 at 6:49 am: 118
Steve, there must be times when you wonder whether or not it’s all worth the effort.
Just take it from me that it really is. Without Escape Pod, and all the other Escape Artists’ contributions, my hour-and-a-half drive to work every morning at 06:30 would be torture.
Not only that, but you’ve added so much colour and shape to the thoughts in my head that I’m a happier person just for havinng these wonderful and terrible ideas to mull over and think about during the working day.
So, quite frankly: My life is better for having you in it. And I thank you for that.
Kindest regards from David Steele, Yorkshire, England.
ADerksen on 21 Nov 2008 at 11:13 am: 119
You know, Steve - you’ve done an amazing thing for a lot of new authors by getting this whole show up and off the ground and flying, and you’ve been an amazing resource for your listeners as well. I have been impressed by the continuous high quality of your shows, and thrilled to see the whole operation grow and diversify into your sibling podcasts at PodCastle and PseudoPod.
More amazing still (have I overused that particular superlative? I think not!) is how you manage to pull all of this off AND run a real job and a real life on the side. I know how incredibly difficult that is, and when push comes to shove, real life has to win. Part of why I listen to EscapePod is so that I can escape from mine for a little while - but I know those escapes can’t replace the real thing. I can dream of Artificial Intelligence and laser beams, but I have to listen to the podcast while in front of the microscope.
Heck, when I didn’t find a new EscapePod story in my automated feed this week, my first concern was not, “where is my story, darnit!”, but rather, “gee, I hope Mr. Eley is okay”. I think that you should take that to heart. Your audience is sympathetic and appreciative, and will be here when you get back. We know that you are an integral part of the show, and that it can’t happen unless you are doing okay.
So… get okay, Mr. Eley.
Reality has to come first.
The fiction and your fans will still be here waiting when you get back.
Anony on 21 Nov 2008 at 6:08 pm: 120
Post 120. I hope that means something to you. Finally a chance to catch up on all the old stories! (Nightfall was awesome)
Tom on 21 Nov 2008 at 11:33 pm: 121
Get it together Steve. For real.
Giancarlo Angulo on 22 Nov 2008 at 12:32 am: 122
Steve, Hope you find the Fund and the Balance you are looking for!
meg on 22 Nov 2008 at 3:04 am: 123
Steve,
I listen to EscapePod at night as I drift off to sleep. You are a beautiful bedtime storyteller and I will be forever grateful for the bliss your podcast has given me. Please take as much time as you need to care for yourself.
This is no failure, dear one. In part, this is all of the vacations that you never allowed yourself finally catching up to you. I hope that when you return you are able to include periods of R&R into your regularly scheduled podcasting activities. Your horde of listeners won’t mind if you take some time away from tending us to nurture yourself now and then.
Take care.
Whistling John on 22 Nov 2008 at 10:31 am: 124
July 14, 2005 You create your own stage, the audience is waiting.
Mike G on 23 Nov 2008 at 7:02 am: 125
You’re a good narrator (esp when you DON’T try to do women’s voices) and you pick a lot of good stories, “Beans and Marbles” was very entertaining. I hope you feel better soon.
aka on 23 Nov 2008 at 7:55 am: 126
Steve, you’ve done an excellent job with escape pod, we’ll still be here when you’re back.
Lazlo Panaflex on 23 Nov 2008 at 12:17 pm: 127
Steve, i’ve been listening for quite a while now and i got behind when i left Ontario (up in Canada) for Fort McMurray, Alberta (also Canada, but much colder). Anyway, when driving home one night i hear on the radio (CBC radio 1) the announcer talk about science fiction radio shows of the past and how they don’t really exist anymore. i think i said out loud “yeah they do, it’s called ESCAPE POD”. no sooner than the words leave my lips the announcer goes on to say that there is an outlet for science fiction in audio format in the form of the podcast and that the best one is ESCAPE POD. so, during your hiatus, know that you have made it all the way up to the Great White North on the FM band and i’ll be listening and trying to “have fun”.
Cay Green on 23 Nov 2008 at 1:54 pm: 128
Steve, I hope you get what you need from your break - please take as long as you need. All the best you sweet sweet man.
scifiNut on 23 Nov 2008 at 4:41 pm: 129
Steve, get some rest. You won’t lose any loyal listeners during your break.
Hiker on 23 Nov 2008 at 6:24 pm: 130
Take a vacation. Everyone takes vacation. I expect you to do the same, without having to provide an excuse.
Best of luck sorting it all out.
(And… the show is great. Escape Pod and Podcastle; best fiction sources in Podcasting.)
EP fan on 23 Nov 2008 at 10:26 pm: 131
Steve,
We all understand! You are doing a great job! Take your time!
-EP fan
Aram on 23 Nov 2008 at 11:39 pm: 132
Everybody needs time off. Passion is important, and no one would want you to lose your love of science fiction. Take a break, breathe in, breathe out, and when your lungs ache for story time, come back to us. We’ll be here.
Gary Katsevman on 24 Nov 2008 at 4:43 am: 133
Steve,
If you need time to get your act together take it. I’m sure that all the Escape Pods fans would prefer you to take a longer break now, even through December, if you can come back stronger and better in the new year. I love Escape Pod and appreciate all the work you have done to bring it to us. Before Escape Pod I have never really understood nor liked short fiction, now I understand how amazing it is. So, take a big breath and dont forget to “have fun”
RAW on 24 Nov 2008 at 9:18 am: 134
WOW…almost afraid to add anything here for fear of sounding silly. Apart from the great stories I think I stay (a year now) to find out how you (Steve) are doing. I can’t recall a podcaster pulling me into their life as much as you have. I am sure that’s part of why we are all still here, stories…yes but personality…definitely. I will be waiting to hear more. By the way I live in the vacation spot you need…Negril, Jamaica….FUN…we know the meaning of fun… Take care and “cool runnings”.
Tim on 24 Nov 2008 at 9:27 am: 135
Steve,
I fully support you in taking a break. You are overdue a break and it is okay to take one!!! I hope you give yourself full permission to do this and not consider it a failure because I don’t. You are a strong person to admit this is what you need. Thank you for your hard and wonderful work bringing the greatest short SF out there!!! Oh, and to borrow I line I have heard a time or two: “HAVE FUN!”
ORD on 24 Nov 2008 at 10:51 am: 136
Some people strive their whole life and still don’t leave much of a mark on the world. You are not one of those people. Never under estimate how good EscapePod is or how much we the listeners enjoy the stories (and the quality of the reading).
The breaks you take are your business and you will not be judged for it. I just appreciate the hard work that goes in every week to bring me a story. It’s like being a kid again and hanging out for the next comic book.
Solomon on 24 Nov 2008 at 8:44 pm: 137
So much has already been said that is worth saying! I’ll agree with pretty much everything, and comment on these comments:
Will@35, I also moved to a non-English-speaking country with no bookstores in the village, not even Spanish-langauge stories (unless the Watchtower counts…). Lacking the intimacy of being read to is sometimes overwhelming. It is a reconection with humanity, in a deeply human manner; coupled with Steve’s thoughts, it’s like being sent fresh muffins from home, and opening the box to find that they are still hot from the oven.
Earthspot @ 76 - on gratitude: I’ve found that gratitude is not really an appropriate return for offering the kind of generosity and assistace that is needed during mental illness; survival is. Give without expecting; understand that it’s not perversity that causes people to attach resentment to those who helped them, but shame at our own helplessness. Expectations of gratitude, from others or from ourselves, perpetuate that shame. Forgive, and enjoy the survival.
Benjamin @ 89 - I can’t say enough good things about Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. It saved my kid’s life, and the mindfulness it’s based on saved mine.
Steve, you are loved. Not only in some intellectual, arm’s length, awkward geek kind of way; though, probably that, too. You have gathered about you a community. Your spirit cannot help but show through your work. You are bravely honest, care about quality, respect your listeners, and you value freedom… of course, so does the audience you’ve attracted. Courage is not about never being weak or scared; it is about being frightened, and doing it anyway.
So go on then, survive–more than that, thrive. Whatever it takes to rediscover your joy, do that.
Solomon on 24 Nov 2008 at 8:46 pm: 138
Wow. Look at the love.
Will@35, I also moved to a non-English-speaking country with no bookstores in the village, not even Spanish-langauge stories (unless the Watchtower counts…). Lacking the intimacy of being read to is sometimes overwhelming. It is a reconection with humanity, in a deeply human manner; coupled with Steve’s thoughts, it’s like being sent fresh muffins from home, and opening the box to find that they are still hot from the oven.
Earthspot @ 76 - on gratitude: I’ve found that gratitude is not really an appropriate return for offering the kind of generosity and assistace that is needed during mental illness; survival is. Give without expecting; understand that it’s not perversity that causes people to attach resentment to those who helped them, but shame at our own helplessness. Expectations of gratitude, from others or from ourselves, perpetuate that shame. Forgive, and enjoy the survival.
Benjamin @ 89 - I can’t say enough good things about Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. It saved my kid’s life, and the mindfulness it’s based on saved mine.
Steve, you are loved. Not only in some intellectual, arm’s length, awkward geek kind of way; though, probably that, too. You have gathered about you a community. Your spirit cannot help but show through your work. You are bravely honest, care about quality, respect your listeners, and you value freedom… of course, so does the audience you’ve attracted. Courage is not about never being weak or scared; it is about being frightened, and doing it anyway.
So go on then, survive–more than that, thrive. Whatever it takes to rediscover your joy, do that.
Ken Ryan on 24 Nov 2008 at 11:10 pm: 139
Just a quick addition of my 2 cents - I too greatly enjoy Escape Pod (and PP and PC) and will be patiently awaiting its return. Thank you!
Pat on 25 Nov 2008 at 12:23 am: 140
Steve - Take a break. Family & Health first! I came to Escape Pod around show #7, and it’s been a real pleasure to listen to over the years. You’ve done a fantastic job. But now you need a break. Have a great holiday.
theologybird on 25 Nov 2008 at 1:32 am: 141
Breathe. Learn to have fun with this again. Because you make it possible for people like me to have fun listening to it.
Joanne on 25 Nov 2008 at 2:42 pm: 142
My condolences on the loss of your Grandmother.
Take your time to do what you need. Time off for a good re-think is not failing, its managing. The best podcasts I listen to go on regularly scheduled breaks.
And remember, whne you can, have fun!
Nomad on 25 Nov 2008 at 6:29 pm: 143
Steve - Take as long as you need, We will be waiting …
Take Care.
Udon on 25 Nov 2008 at 7:00 pm: 144
Mr. Eley, I have never contributed to the site before, but have been reading it and listening to the podcasts for a long time. I also have a podcast. I have put out 12 episodes in one year and have struggled to do so, I cannot imagine doing a weekly podcast. Escape pod is amazing. Please take as much time as you need. What I am trying to say has been much more eloquently said by others above. Have fun.
Tiffany on 26 Nov 2008 at 3:29 am: 145
My sympathy to you and your family on the passing of your grandmother. I have been listening since about episode 7 or so, not the VERY beginning, but pretty close and there have been times when I have been too busy to even listen to every single episode every week, so, I really admire you for keeping on top of it all - life, family, work, etc for this long. You deserve the rest and I pray for you, your health, your family while you are in the period of your life and trying to get things sorted out. I admire you Steve Eley for putting together three podcasts since 2005. Have Fun!
Sherry on 26 Nov 2008 at 12:28 pm: 146
Steve,
You are so important. One of my favorite people in this extremely important Grand Faloon.
Take care of yourself so we can have you back when you are ready.
If you need a get-away, I live 20 miles from Aspen and I have a nice big guest bedroom and guest bath…
kfc on 26 Nov 2008 at 1:19 pm: 147
hey, I’ve got such a backlog of stories to catch up with, it’s no problem. Enjoy your break. And thanks for such a treasure trove
slickcat on 26 Nov 2008 at 2:32 pm: 148
Steve,
Do what you have to do to take care of yourself. We’ll all still be here when you get back.
Jason on 26 Nov 2008 at 2:34 pm: 149
A point of empathy. It sounds like you and I have dealt with some of the same issues. Depression and all that comes with it . . . In my case, I was depressed for nearly my entire life, and only realized it when I reached my 30s.
Getting better took some of the finest medications modern chemistry can offer. The amazing thing? It worked. I don’t feel any less me, but the world itself is now tinged with a much lighter shade of gray.
I’m not going bright white light. That’s just not who I am. But the person I am is enjoying the gray world a hell of a lot more.
Like so many people here, I’m happy to offer myself as a resource, share my experiences, and give what help I can.
Babycatcher on 27 Nov 2008 at 12:25 am: 150
Steve,
I am in full support of you and this podcast. I would rather see you take some time than disappear from the podiverse. Be well and keep watching the skies!
Peace, brother,
Mike
Sheriff Ben on 27 Nov 2008 at 1:20 pm: 151
Having read all of the comments saying everything there is to say i would just like to add my thanks for the best podcast in the space-time continuum. Take care of your self then you can come back strong and rocking all of our worlds.
Ed on 28 Nov 2008 at 10:05 am: 152
Steve, did anyone actually WANT their donation back? I just wich I would have know you were taking a break in advance so we could have set up the “Send Steve and Family to Cozumel” fund! You need a vacation like everyone else does.
Caroline on 1 Dec 2008 at 7:44 pm: 153
I wish you all the best, Steve. Your hard work has kept me entertained for many years. You deserve a break.
Many blessings to you and yours.
Pallidus on 2 Dec 2008 at 3:23 pm: 154
Steve- I love your podcast. I cant believe you have been doing this so long without a break! I’d like to echo what everyone else said… its OK to take a vacation! Actually its better than ok… its good for you. We expect you to take a break! Also, be more forgiving of yourself and don’t judge yourself harshly- its bad for your mental health. Believe me, I know. All the best!
Ed Wood on 2 Dec 2008 at 9:26 pm: 155
I had no idea how long this has been going on. I have to echo most of the previous comments. A month off once a year would still be far less than you deserve. Keep up the good work.
Xepher on 6 Dec 2008 at 1:06 pm: 156
I believe wise guru once said “Don’t worry, be happy now!”
Mike on 7 Dec 2008 at 10:02 pm: 157
Failures are people who, never recognizing that they are human and have limitations, attempt to burn through their limitations and burn themselves up in the process. Successful people recognize their limitations and work with them. You have proved not that you are a failure, but that you are a success. It’s just that, like many successful people, the guilt you feel about your success is roughly proportional to the lack of guilt most failures feel about failing.
kim on 9 Dec 2008 at 12:22 pm: 158
Steve, thanks for having done all you have so far, not just the stories, but also the personal bits you have put into the podcasts, you have helped me in ways you cannot know, I think I can say you are the most important stranger in my life!. I hope you are able to do more, but if not,- well you’ve already surpassed most people. The stories and the way they are read are better than any other podcast ( and a lot of audiobooks) I have listened to, I miss them, but if you cannot return I will always remember you
GC on 11 Dec 2008 at 2:59 pm: 159
There are a lot of comments here (a credit to you) so I’ll keep this short.
No worries Steve, no hard feelings, just the very best wishes!
For God sake, take a brake!
Farkshinsoup on 12 Dec 2008 at 2:59 pm: 160
I’ll just say this - take a cue from the makers of episodic television - they organize their shows around “seasons”. No one puts out one episode after another. Even late night talk shows go on breaks and show reruns every once in a while so that their creators can recharge their batteries. You should build hiati into the show from here on in - it’s the only way that you can sustain it.
Thanks for everything - do what you have to, and stop and smell the roses! Life’s too short.
Robert Livingston on 23 Dec 2008 at 6:46 am: 161
When I got my first job as a boss, my predecessor gave me one piece of crucial advice: don’t be afraid to compromise sometimes. Steve, you’ve been doing a fantastic job, and Escapepod is an absolute model of its kind. Everyone deserves a holiday now and then!
Sherry on 24 Dec 2008 at 3:45 pm: 162
I love Escape Pod, and I love you too Steve Ely. My husband, 21yo son, 19yo daughter and I all miss you and wish you energy.
Thank you so much for taking care of yourself! Let us know if you need anything.